Existence

A friend asked me a few days ago regarding my love life that so far doesn't exist. I was taken aback since we never really get to talk about this kind of stuff and she's not the type who gets seriously curious with other person's love life. I honestly answered with a big "NO, I don't have any" I said. 

She asked me why and I said I don't know since that was the real score. I don't know where the f*** is the guy that was supposed to make the best out of me. I added just to shut her up which made her laugh. After that conversation. It made me think about what I have done with the half of the 26 years and 10 months I have spent alive. Granted that half of those times I was an infant then the other's when I was merely a kid. I know I have spent three years with an ex, but what about the other half? Have I been sleeping that long?

Then it hit me. Was it really my fault I ended up alone at 26? Was it because of a certain event in my life that left me scared to death of trusting the opposite sex or was it because I got sick and I know that there's this big chance that I might just not last long in this world?

But whatever the reason is. One thing remains, I don't have anyone and I'm not happy about it. 

Yet, I can't bring myself to liking just anyone. It frightened me that I might mistook the feeling of longing with love. I don't want to be with someone for the reason that I was vulnerable and he happen to have passed by. I want the real thing. I want to wait even if it takes me years. If he never appears then it was meant not to.I just have to accept it. Then, I will do plan B!!!

The Black Hole of Insanity

For people who know me. I can easily be ranked as a junkie when it comes to a good theatrical performance. I love watching plays it can take me to places that I have never been to and do things that I have never done before. It can influence my life in an instance and can change my perspective without any difficulty [much less force from my friends]. A play can also depress me so much that I will prattle about it harder than anybody else. [That's what I am doing right now]


Remember when I posted about Amor's visit in Manila because of the plays that we ought to watch? Well this is all about the plays. It took me a month before I can finally gather myself and make a blog out of it.


You see, we had to watch 3 plays then at two different locations. One of it was held at our own beloved university which was done by the theater group that we belong to. The other two where done by a group of second year and third year students from a school where my friend Amor helped the kids through a workshop.


I was really looking forward to watching our org's play since it's been a year and their budget is quite big. I was hoping that since they prepared for it for almost 5 months. It will make an impact on me.

Creepy

It did, the impact was so huge I was taken in a different place, no it's not a different dimension and it was not pleasant either. I was taken into the black hole of my insane mind. It was not easy. I was in a catatonic state for an hour. I was so thankful when they had a 10 minute break in the middle of the play because I had to wipe my drool out of my face. No, I'm not exaggerating. I am stating a fact. And yes Margy. I should have listened when you told me not to watch that horrid play. From now on, I will stand by your judgement. I swear I will!

Now the next play we've seen that day was an amateur done by mere children. But compared to what I saw from the first play. We've been to the two last ones were like a breath of fresh air. They might not be professionals but they know what they are doing and they did not spend eighty effing thousand on a speech choir.

Aside from Cessa's constant goofiness on one of the casts, the devil, everything turned out fine!! Thanks Amor you made me realize that teaching children might not always be a bad idea.

The Replacement

I went home a week ago to spend Seollal [ Lunar New Year] with my family, not because we celebrate Seollal but because it was one of the two times a year where vacation is more than just a day for me. On my way home I already called my sister to be sure that she's home when I arrive. You see my sister is currently the busiest bee we have at home since she is always everywhere. She's on her 3rd year taking up Communication Arts and she's been doing so much these days. Upon arriving, as a habit my sister ransacked my tote to see what she can hoard from me. And there it was my new Sophie Martin wallet that I so love, she spotted it and declared at the top of her lungs that she wants it and I have to give it to her. Usually I give in easily but since I missed the brat so much I decided to make it tinny weeny itsy bitsy hard for her. To make it short I said no!! She was wailing like a siren because she said she really wants it. I retorted that I will only give it to her if I can get something of hers that she likes a lot. She said okay so I ran to her room and get one of her favorite lip glosses. It was JEMMA KIDD MAKE UP SCHOOL lip gloss in fuchsia. She was shocked because she knows how expensive it is, it was more than the price of the wallet. But I said that she can never have it back and it's a lesson for her to never do unto other's what you don't want others to do unto you. So! I have it; her most beloved lip gloss is now mine!! Bwahahaha!!!


So the brat learned her lesson and I got a new lip love.





Just to give you an idea why I and my sister love this!





It's not too powerful, the color blends well and it looks quite natural.





It's not too scary to apply since it's in a tube and with just a few dab of it and viola it's done.





Lastly, it was a bit expensive it was given by Anna and was about 14 Pounds or not less than $22 and both of us will not waste money just to have one of these baby!!!

THE Wedding Gown

Praise the Lord above for I have found it!!! I have found the dress that will kick all the asses of the dresses that I have ever worn. [Even the Duckie dress that I sooo love] This one is the ONE that I will wear on THE DAY!! Yes! my dearests I have found my WEDDING GOWN.


I know that it's too early to say whether I will be getting married or not, but one thing is for sure I will wear it if not in my wedding then in my funeral.Mweooow!!!


So here it is from www.weddingbellsblog.com feast your eyes with my HELLO KITTY WEDDING GOWN!!!! [clap, clap, clap, clap]

But wait, if I am wearing a Hello Kitty Wedding Gown it's just proper that my future groom [whoever he is]

will wear one too right?

What can be better than having my future Chur wear this? I feel excited already! Now the only problem I have is where to find my TOM!!! Meooow!!